Tag Archives: poetry

Apologies

30 Jul

So if I said
Sorry sorry sorry
Would everything be
alright alright alright?
Apologies aren’t meant to be
Like broken records
Sitting on the gramophone
Dances interrupted
Moments paused
In that minute
Something precious
Could have happened
But by belief
Apparently many a times
Of the word Sorry
Would cure everything
Like medicine I drink upon
Those words
Prescribed by society
Drinking a little more medicine
Wouldn’t make it wine
Nor tea
Nor juice
Only a little
Less bitter
What if I sugar coated
My sorry
And feed you the sweet tart
Of apologies
Would everything then be okay?
Or would the poison
Between us both
Still exist

Hipster

28 Jul

As I eat my ciabatta
And drink Charlie’s thirst quencher
(A fairly hipster lunch)
I ponder over my thoughts
Why I’m feeling this way
What’s happening
Where every part of me craves for you
Whom I often push away
When I get a little sad inside
How this isn’t how things are suppose
To turn out
And I play Undo by the 1975
Secretly hoping I hadn’t formed
Any sort of thing with you
Undoing all the knots that
Had created an emotional wreck
Of me
Tell me it’s normal
To feel protective
When all you did
Was plunged right into this life
And let fate bring us here

Universe

25 Jul

Oh take me away
The universe enveloping us both
Stars dusting our hair gently
Like glitter flecks on the cupcakes
I used to bake
Swinging on the white moon
Kissing on our backs
Tracking the tears with craters
Oh take me away
Where I would swim
In the galaxy and toss my legs
Up in the air
Where I cannot breathe
Not without your oxygen
We exist as one
Dreaming like Armstrong
Gravity like reality
Pulling us back down
I wish I could
Take me away
Place myself
In a whole other world

Don’t go?

22 Jul

Because I think I love you
And this day I’ve feared
For so long
No I don’t love you
Not that way
I just want you to stay
And not leave
So I can cry on your shoulders
For the first time
And kiss you
With drunkard lips
For the first time
Hug you for so long
I would never quite let go
I hope you aren’t fickle minded
Because then everything
Would just dissipate
Like the ashes
Burning in the furnace
This shouldn’t be how
I’m supposed to be feeling

You

13 Jul

So have you ever felt
So deeply for someone
You love the person
With everything that you have
In that small heart of yours
The greatness of love
However
Didn’t seem to be given back
Now I’m talking about friend
Not lovers
So don’t get me wrong
I’ve had a friend
And I really did love her
With everything
I listened
I tried
I really did
And never once
Did I think I was a bad friend
And within all the days
We spent
Not a second I would ever let go
But maybe it was folly
For me to say everything
That I needed to
Some things I kept close
For a while
And I’m not sorry
I ever said those things
It wasn’t mean
Neither was it hurtful
It was the truth
And suddenly
There were no more
Phone calls
Or texts
Or hellos and goodbyes
Nothing left
All that’s left
Was me feeling
Like something was lost
Vaporized into only thoughts
I can laugh at how
Stupid I’ve been
Giving and giving
And not having the last laugh
I don’t know anymore
I’m okay now I really am
But all I’m feeling is hurt
And disappointment
I expected better
More
It all drives back home one message
One can never be too truthful
Eh?

Jed

9 Jul

“I know I need to lift my eyes up
But I’m too weak
Life just won’t let up
And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left”

He settled himself and pressed his pocket to check if his wallet and bus card was there. Relief
Placing his backpack on his lap,he unzipped the front pocket and took out the bag that held the wrapped loaf of bread. Jed would love it.It was his favorite. Corn and raisin bread.
Peering out of the bus window,the wind caressing his cheek and ruffling his hair, he glanced at all the children with their mini backpacks and buzz light year shoes and became sad again.

Jed never got to experience that kind of luxury.All he had were color pencils and the four walls. He was exhausted, life was tough. So difficult,everyday. To and fro was a long journey. Leaning his head against his backpack, he smiled and looked at his wallet.
Jed became his happiness. What was sorrow for him turned right back to pure joy. Jed was his life and he couldn’t wait to get home to see his smile again.

“I’m home!Jed!”
Silence.
“Jed!Papa’s got some bread for you!”
Nothing.
He dropped his keys into the ratan basket and made himself a cup of cocoa to share with his son.
“Jedediah,look what I’ve got for you today…….Jed?”
Everything was quiet and all that remained was the image of his son lying on the bed.Unconscious.His lids were closed and in his hand was a color pencil in red. He dropped to the floor and smoothed Jed’s hair and kissed his cheek. Jed had never looked so peaceful He scanned the area around Jed and found a letter next to him.

I am tired.Lord,please take me away. I want to join mama up there where everything I touch is gold. Let papa be safe and find joy in everything. I am weary. All I ask is for you to bring me up and sing among the angels.

He couldn’t stop sobbing. All his life just gone like this. Jed was his life. Now Jed was gone.

Axis

3 Jul

My happiness used to revolve
Around you and the imaginary care
and love I invented
Everyday I wrote something
That made me happy
So by 31 December 2013
I would have 365 days
Of happiness
Perhaps more
I unfolded some that I wrote
And realized that at least 1/4
Had your name written on
/laughs/
My life used to spin
On an axis that I drew
Fading as each second ticked
You were happiness
Happy was I
I’ve never regretted you
Not ever
Not even this 184th day
But I have to let you know
That I wished hard
Like a child
How those seconds fading
Would pause
And spin on a real axis
You and I could both draw
And love on
We are just not meant
Like how water and oil
Never mix
We just
Happen
To cross each other’s paths
Talk a bit
Create a deep love
Then walk away
Because we
Have better things to do
In our lives
Our lives that will
Never co-exist